As 2015 draws to a close, I want to take the time to reflect on what I have gone through this year.
This year, I’m done quite a few things I never thought I would do.
- I started composing my own melody/songs (I never thought it was possible until I tried).
- I started blogging regularly (every Monday but I’ve been late lately *It’s 11:56PM right now*).
- I started creating raps (I never thought it was possible until I tried). You can read my first rap here
- I started translating a Chinese novel into English (I never thought I would translate a novel, especially when I’ve never actually read a book in Simplified Chinese before). It is definitely challenging, but it is not impossible. You can read my translation here
- I went speed dating (I never thought I would actually try something like that). It was an interesting experience. You can read about it here
- I went to hand out socks for the homeless. You can read about my experience here
I did a lot of things I never thought I would do. I guess I just wanted to experience newer things. I feel like most of the time, we try to convince ourselves of why we don’t want to do something because we’re afraid of failure.
For example: Creating my own songs. I’ve told myself that I cannot do it simply because I have never done it. But I’ve never tried…how did I know I couldn’t?
I just assumed automatically since I’ve never done it, it wasn’t possible.
But when I actually set my mind and made the effort to take action, I surprised myself!!
I actually like my compositions. (I need to figure out how to share it with you guys :P)
Ever since I’ve gotten sick (I have an autoimmune condition), I feel like I have been a lot more open with trying new things. I want to live life with no regrets. I don’t want to set limitations for myself because I feel like it’s all in the mind.
You are what you tell yourself.
I’m still in pain right now, but it’s not as noticeable (unless I tell you, you can’t really tell). But although I still struggle, I try to focus on all the positive side because I hate being miserable.
There are definitely days when I am extremely emotional. I cry over the tiniest things. Some people still think I am strong though.
Honestly, I’m not strong. I just want to live a happy life. Therefore, I try to do things that make me feel good. If I am enjoying myself, then I’m less likely to be upset.
I guess what I want to say is, you really need to find out what you like/enjoy, and do those things as much as possible! I want all of you to be happy, and if you tend to be very negative, then you need to really change how you think.
It’s all about perspective.