My mini autobiography

Several days ago, I turned 32 and I feel like it’s time for another reflective post.

I have the tendency to think a lot; about my past, present and future. I think about my past mistakes, the choices I’ve made, and what I look forward to. I think about my dreams, goals, and purpose.

I think about why I do what I do, and why I am the way I am.

I think about how I can achieve what I want, faster.

I think about how I can make a lasting, positive impact.

I want to do so much.

It may sound crazy, but I want to be a legacy.

You may ask, how? By doing what?

I think, by using my words to impact others.

I want you to feel better, happier, more empowered after reading my blog posts and translations.

I want to share my experience and advice, and you to benefit from it. Knowing that I have the power to change someone’s behaviour makes me feel good.

I’ve come to realize that I need to live a life with meaning to be happy. For the first 23 years of my life, I basically followed exactly what my father had wanted me to do.

As a child, my only goal was to get good grades so I could get into university and then get a good, stable job.

I needed good grades. I was a “good” student, but at the same time, I wasn’t. I mean, I showed up to class and did all my homework. I tried to study and do well, but half the time I was daydreaming because it was so damn boring.

I tried to retain as much as I could, but I’m just not very academic. At least, it’s not easy for me. I have a slow brain, so it takes me a long time to understand something.

I had friends who could seamlessly get 90s without trying, while here I was, working hard and struggling to get an 80. So sad.

I knew school wasn’t really for me, but I still tried. In fact, I even got an award for perfect attendance. LOL, so lame. Who gives an award for that??? Continue reading “My mini autobiography”

The harsh reality of being a content creator

We are born in a generation where as long as you have the internet and a device (phone, laptop, video camera, etc), you can upload things online and share with the world. Depending on the person, there may be conflicting views on this. But we can’t deny the fact that the internet has created a lot more opportunities for people overall.

Today, I would like to blog about the harsh reality of being a content creator. Content creators are basically people who create content usually targeted towards a specific group of audience for their entertainment purposes.

Back then, most content creators started off as hobbyists. For example, when Youtube first became popular, most people were just posting random clips online. People never really thought of making money from it.

Eventually, people realized it was possible to make a living off Youtube. As long as you develop a huge following with lots of views, you can earn ad revenue!

So, people then started to make all sort of content in hopes of getting viral.

Maybe if they get popular enough, they could quit their jobs and pursue their dream career and do what they actually love!

While it sounds simple enough, reality is far from it.

In order to quit your job to pursue this type career, you must earn enough from your content so that it could replace your income. The problem is, most people do not want to pay for content.

Can you imagine if I charged you to read this? Chances are, you would just not read it. LOL

With so many other options, why would we pay for something that we could get free elsewhere?

Thus, if your dream is to become a content creator, you’re going to suffer A LOT. You’ll constantly be trying to get followers. Even if you have great and free content, you’re competing against countless of others and there is no guarantee people will watch/read/consume/follow. Continue reading “The harsh reality of being a content creator”

My thoughts on the Coronavirus

Online, I’ve seen many netizens comparing the coronavirus with the flu. They say that millions of people die from the flu, so people are overreacting.

But please keep in mind the numbers that you see are only the confirmed cases. There are limited testing kits and many suspected patients are undiagnosed. Many are left to die at home or “self quarantine” because there are not enough hospital beds due to the huge demand.

If it were really only several hundred dead, China would never take such drastic measures. Over 50 million people are under lockdown right now. The government got thousands of people to build two new hospitals within 10 days. China even shut down money making attractions like Disneyland in Shanghai and the Forbidden City in Beijing.

The moment suspicious cases started popping up, the CCP should’ve taken it seriously. Instead, they tried to suppress the messengers by sending out warnings.

Li Wenliang was a Chinese ophthalmologist at Wuhan Central Hospital when he warned his friends and colleagues about a new coronavirus strain on Wechat on December 30th, 2019. Rather than thanking him, the authorities approached Wenliang to sign a document admitting he was wrong for spreading rumours and inciting fear amongst the public.

Although Wenliang wasn’t lying, he admitted to the accusations because of the implications it could have had on him and his family. If he had gone against the CCP, he probably would have been thrown in jail.

After Wenliang passed away from the virus several days ago, there was a huge public outcry. It was as if his death had woken up millions of citizens.

However, in order to maintain their power and control, the CCP puts very strict measures on what its citizens can see and do. They only post propaganda content that reflects them in a positive light. They dispose anything that could lead to social instability and weakens their power.

So within a matter of hours, all the posts regarding freedom of speech and other topics that criticized the government were taken down.

Several weeks ago, there were clips that had been leaked onto twitter with nurses saying that over 100k people have already been affected with the virus. Additionally, there have been multiple clips online of bodies lying in Wuhan hospitals next to the living. The CCP has repeatedly denied that the videos were real, but one of the guys I followed on youtube and twitter had actually gone to report the real situation in Wuhan by personally visiting the hospitals and interviewing the locals.

His videos show what is actually going on and his critiques are quite fair in my honest opinion. He only reports what he sees and hears in person. It is very heartbreaking and agonizing to see the current conditions.

There is so much fear and hopelessness. Can you imagine if your loved ones were dying from excruciating pain and all you could do was beg and watch?

Sadly, Chen Qiushi “vanished” six days ago while he was on his way to another hospital. His mother made a video asking netizens for help to locate her son. Apparently, Chen Qiushi has been detained and forced to go under quarantined. However, his phone has been confiscated and no one has been able to reach him at all.  I really hope he’s okay and that he will be released soon.

To give you an idea, here’s a clip that SCMP posted:

By now, it is no surprise that the CCP is cracking down on these “citizen reporters”. They cannot allow their videos or content to go viral as it causes panic and social unrest. Continue reading “My thoughts on the Coronavirus”

Man’s search for meaning

Man's search for meaning

This book was one of the toughest books I’ve ever read. It is about a psychiatrist’s horrific experience in Nazi death camps. When I envisioned what he had gone through, I literally felt sick to my stomach. I wondered what I would’ve done in his place.

Would I have had the will to live? How could I go on if I feel like the suffering will never end?

This post is not a book summary. I just want to share a few notable quotes that caught my attention and add my views on it.

 

“When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves.”

You either learn to adapt or give up…there’s really no other option.

 

“Those who have a ‘why’ to live, can bear with almost any ‘how’.”

We all need that purpose or ‘why’ to keep going. Your ‘why’ may differ from mine. But without a reason, there’s no meaning. Without meaning, there’s no point. What gives your life meaning?

  Continue reading “Man’s search for meaning”

Avoid these 3 online dating mistakes + 2 great tips

To my dear readers,

I haven’t blogged in SO LONG. Haha. (Sorry). Today, I would like to share some of the online dating mistakes I have made in the past and also two awesome tips. Hopefully, this post will help provide you with some insight.

 

  1. Too focused on the outcome

This is a big one. In the past, while I was online dating, my sole purpose was to find a potential relationship. I didn’t want to sleep around, or waste time. So, my mindset was, “Don’t talk to me unless you want something serious.”

However, whoever you’re talking to doesn’t even know you yet. You can’t expect or ask someone to show commitment before they even have an idea of what you’re like.

Suggestion: After speaking to them for a week or two, perhaps set up a date to meet up and see whether you enjoy their company. Don’t make it like an interview style and ask questions like, “When would you like to settle down?” “How many kids do you want?” and etc (Note: I didn’t do that but you get the idea. It may scare off a lot of people if you come off so intense at the beginning. Do not plan out or imagine your entire future with a stranger!)

 

  1. Suffered from Oneitis

In the past, I recalled getting very attached to someone I’ve met online. I think it was because I liked him so much that I didn’t want to talk to anyone else. I was so focused on him that I wanted him to respond to me every day (and quickly too). I didn’t realize I was giving him so much pressure until it was much too late.

I remember having lots of options but in my mind, I was like, “No! I just want him! I don’t need anyone else!” (I know, so pathetic -_-). But when you’re overly obsessed with a person, it makes you appear very clingy and desperate.

Suggestion: Pace yourself in the conversation. It’s not sustainable if you want someone to constantly respond to you. Quality over quantity. Also, don’t focus on just one guy/girl until you guys are exclusive. He/she is probably talking to many others as well.

 

  1. Being too demanding

In the past, I’ve been extremely vocal about what I want. But if a person is interested in you, you wouldn’t need to force him/her to do anything.

As my student/friend said, “Grace, don’t judge a man by what he says. Judge a man by what he does.”

It’s sooooo true! Let his actions to speak for himself.

If a person wants to see you, they’ll make time. If a person values you, they’ll show you. Allow them to come to you.

Suggestion: Don’t make anyone do anything. Just let it be and wait and see.

Now that I’ve told you about the 3 mistakes I’ve made, here are 2 awesome tips: Continue reading “Avoid these 3 online dating mistakes + 2 great tips”

30,000 days

To my dear readers,

It has been a long time since my last blog post. Sorry! I am so busy nowadays. T_T. I need a lot of inspiration in order to write. Anyhow, I would like to share a real story with you. Hopefully, it will touch you in some ways.


 

A few weeks ago, I found out A tried to commit suicide because he was suffering too much. A was in constant physical pain and couldn’t take it anymore.

I found out because A went missing on a mutual server we shared. Everyone was worried about him and wanted me to find out whether he was ok or not. (I had met A in real life once so I had his number).

When I called, A picked up and sounded really emotional. I was bewildered and wanted to know what happened. However, he didn’t go into details. All he said was that he was in the hospital and that it may take him 2 months before he’d be back.

Since it was obvious A didn’t want to talk, we hung up and I told the boys that he was at the hospital. All of us were really worried because we didn’t know why A had to stay there for so long. Usually, Canadian hospitals would try to kick you out as quickly as possible.

Was he terminally ill? Did he get into a huge accident? There were so many unanswered questions going through our minds. Continue reading “30,000 days”

Who says you can’t? You do

Who says you can'tIt has been so long since I last blogged! Today, I’m back again with another inspirational post. This time, I’m going to be posting quotes from the book “Who says you can’t? You do” by Daniel Chidiac.

All the quotes I’m about to mention are from the novel itself. I reflect on everything Daniel says and it really pushes me to be more. It is incredibly empowering and motivational. I hope his words will also have a similar effect on you.

If you take a good look around, you will notice that most people would have perceived every creation as impossible before it was created.

Everything seems impossible at first. If 30 years ago, someone told you that in the future they would be able to use their phones to take pictures and face-time with someone across the world, would you have believed it?

I hear people say to me, “I know how life works; you wake up, go to work, and come home. It’s the same thing every day.” My reply is, “No, that’s how your life works.”

This is so powerful. How does this statement make you feel?

It is only achievement and fulfilment together that brands someone truly successful.

I completely agree. What is your definition of success?

Most people know what they want; they just believe it’s out of their reach. We let so many dreams, visions and ideals slip because we think others might find them stupid, that it will be too hard, or we give up due to the hurdles we come across. 

Sometimes, it seems like it’s impossible. As a result, we don’t even bother to try in order to avoid the likelihood of disappointment.

Everyone on the road of achievement has experienced self-doubt. Those who win, though, always overpower that doubt with self-assurance. You’re not the only one that has or will experience hardship on your road.

You’re not the only one who is experiencing hardship. But if it’s something you want, you must persevere.  Continue reading “Who says you can’t? You do”

Twitter inspiration

growth

I haven’t written an inspirational post for quite some time. I know I used to blog weekly, but I honestly do not have enough content to sustain it. As a result, most likely, I’ll only be blogging once a month or so.

I was going through my twitter the other day, and I ended up scrolling through all of my old tweets.

I’ve always been a huge fan of personal development and inspirational content. So today, I would like to share six quotes that I have tweeted in the past. These quotes resonate a lot with me, and I hope they will also have some positive impact on you.

Note: The way I interpret the quotes may differ from you.

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  1. Days are expensive. When you spend a day, you have one less day to spend. So make sure you spend each one wisely. – Jim Rohn

This is one of the quotes that personally affected me the most. All of us know we’re going to die, but I don’t think we truly realize that our time is running out. We shouldn’t postpone the things we want to do until a much later date. We should make it a priority to do something each day to get ourselves closer to our goals.

  1. It’s not about having the perfect relationship. It’s about finding someone who matches you and will go through everything without giving up.

I’ve realized that there is no such thing as a perfect relationship. All relationships have issues and flaws. In the end, it really comes down to how much two people want to be together. Both parties must be willing to keep trying in order to have a lasting relationship. Continue reading “Twitter inspiration”

Five types of fans

Five hearts

This post is inspired by all my fans. I’ve learnt a lot from blogging/translating and today I would like to share some of my discoveries and wisdom with you all. 😉

5 types of fans

  1. The silent lurkers

These are the type of fans that never make a single comment, click a single like, or say anything in general. Basically, you don’t even know they exist. They’re just silently supporting you.

  1. The hardcore supporters

These are the type of fans that are extremely passionate about your work. They are relentless, intense, and extremely vocal. They’re the type that will tell everyone about your creation and constantly write encouraging comments to motivate you.

Without hardcore supporters, it is almost impossible for creators to continue.

  1. The generous givers

These are the type of fans that see enough value in your work and are willing to donate or support you on patreon. These fans are extremely rare but are absolutely essential if you want to make a living out of your creation.

Note: Do not underestimate #1 and #2 as they can also be #3.  Continue reading “Five types of fans”

Hm… thoughts?

Green one eyed monster
This is my profile pic on discord. Haha.
Last Monday, I didn’t write my normal Monday post. I felt bad and I wanted to write, but I didn’t feel like venting or sharing some of my personal issues.

However, I don’t want to skip my post again, so I’m going to share a bit.

If you have read my last original post My Adventures on Discord , you would know that I have found a very fun and interactive online community.

Due to my illness, I am often at home. Therefore, nowadays, I usually go on discord daily.

I really enjoy karaoke-ing and chatting with different translators and editors from all over the world. Sometimes, on voice chat, people would play guitar or piano, and a bunch of us would mute ourselves and listen. It’s like attending a concert, except you can only listen.

A few days ago, Options was playing the piano. Deceptioning made a comment.

Deceptioning: Your girlfriend will be a lucky woman (due to the fast fingers? Haha)

A bunch of people: Options is a girl!

Deceptioning: Oh…lucky guy then?

Options: Well, I do have my options (get it? Her name is Options, so she has her options! AHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHA *insert the laughing crying face emoticon*)

*By the way, this was through text and we didn’t actually hear Option speak, so most of us had no idea she was a female.

But on a serious note, discord also made me learn a few things about myself and people.

If someone really wants to talk to you, he/she will make the effort to talk to you even if there are so many barriers (ex. they’re busy, different time zones, different work schedules, etc).

Continue reading “Hm… thoughts?”