Heartache

I’ve neglected my personal posts for over a month now. I’m so sorry… I know, I’m always apologizing. However, I honestly don’t have motivation to post. I have thoughts but I don’t want to share them.

Today, though, I want to share a song that has moved my heart. I have translated some of the lyrics. It’s not exactly 100%, but it’s close enough. Please listen to the song as you read it. The song starts around 0:22

By the way, the thoughts were inspired by the song. This post is not a depressing call for help or anything. lol

At night, is there someone to help you light a lamp?
When you’re dreaming, is there someone to help you unfold your hands?
When you’re upset, is there someone to help you wipe away the tears?
When you’re down, is there someone to wrap you in an embrace? 

Could it be
You truly don’t know
How much you mean to me?

Could it be
You honestly don’t feel it? 

There’s nothing more my love needs to say
Until the end of time

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Honestly, this is one of the most touching performances I have ever seen/heard. From his voice, I could hear heartache, sadness, vulnerability, and defeat. It makes me want to tear up.

I think in general, we all want to find a partner who will be there for us in times of need. Knowing you are loved is comforting. Seldom would we choose a path of loneliness. 

It’s sad because sometimes, no matter how hard you try, the other party just doesn’t feel the same. Aside from moving on, there’s nothing you can do.

At the same time, for those who are constantly giving and seeing no progress, it’s heartbreaking.

Why? Why is it he/she doesn’t see how much I’m willing to do for him/her? I’m putting in all this effort…yet in the end, it doesn’t even matter.

I feel you.

I have chased, and I have fallen.

At the same time, I have been in a position of power where I had all the control. There were guys who would go above and beyond for me. I could see their extra efforts.

It touched me.

But I could not reciprocate.