Hm… thoughts?

Last Monday, I didn’t write my normal Monday post. I felt bad and I wanted to write, but I didn’t feel like venting or sharing some of my personal issues.

However, I don’t want to skip my post again, so I’m going to share a bit.

If you have read my last original post My Adventures on Discord , you would know that I have found a very fun and interactive online community.

Due to my illness, I am often at home. Therefore, nowadays, I usually go on discord daily.

I really enjoy karaoke-ing and chatting with different translators and editors from all over the world. Sometimes, on voice chat, people would play guitar or piano, and a bunch of us would mute ourselves and listen. It’s like attending a concert, except you can only listen.

A few days ago, Options was playing the piano. Deceptioning made a comment.

Deceptioning: Your girlfriend will be a lucky woman (due to the fast fingers? Haha)

A bunch of people: Options is a girl!

Deceptioning: Oh…lucky guy then?

Options: Well, I do have my options (get it? Her name is Options, so she has her options! AHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHA *insert the laughing crying face emoticon*)

*By the way, this was through text and we didn’t actually hear Option speak, so most of us had no idea she was a female.

But on a serious note, discord also made me learn a few things about myself and people.

If someone really wants to talk to you, he/she will make the effort to talk to you even if there are so many barriers (ex. they’re busy, different time zones, different work schedules, etc).

On discord, there are a couple of people who genuinely care a lot about me. I can tell because of the amount of time and effort they spend talking to me (the questions they ask, the topics we talk about, etc). It makes me feel very special, but at the same time, it saddens me because I don’t want to develop too much attachment to these people (lol I know, it sounds bad. But hear me out.)

1. We’re not even living in the same country

2. I don’t know if I will ever meet you in real life (although hopefully one day)

3. These guys are in their early 20s and a lot younger than me LOL 

Honestly, I’m at an age where the majority of my friends are getting married, having babies, or getting very serious with their significant others. On top of that, they are busy with work and other responsibilities. Their priorities have changed, and it makes sense. I don’t blame them. In fact, I’m still very close to a lot of my friends despite the fact we do not hang out as much anymore.

So I guess, all of a sudden, when a bunch of people show interest in me or my life, it really makes me feel good. 

But at the same time, it makes me sad because I feel like it’s just a phase. You know, people come and go.

Sigh.

I still really enjoy discord though.

P.S. I recorded a small clip of myself singing so you can get a taste of what it’s like when I karaoke with people online.

Listen to me sing